by Joe' on Tue Nov 21, 2006 3:34 am
2006 started as the previous four years had started. I used to be one of those stupid dumbass Italian kids that only think about superficial things and hang out with others only if they're "cool" and dress like you.
I turned fourteen years old on January the 1st and my ex-girlfriend made me get drunk so that she could tell me that she was having sex with another dude and that she didn't intend to hurt me but she wanted to finish our relationship. She obviously had to tell me every single thing again, the day after because I couldn't remember anything since I was drunk. Thanks to her I had the worst birthday of my life and now I am terribly afraid of even talking to people of the opposite sex.
On January the 7th, Christmas break from school finished and classes started again. The first thing I remember to happen that day was that my stupid Maths teacher put an F on my test just "because I used to get F's so she thought it wouldn't be necessary to even see if the test was correct" (I studied a lot for that test and I deserved a B but that ugly bitch just wanted to ruin my life so she put an F on the test). Fortunately, apart from Maths, I did well at school, last year.
In February I decided to quit the U16 team (I was playing with both the U14 and U16 team) to concentrate on the U14 since we had chance to enter the playoffs (we were second and usually only the first team in the championship enters the playoffs). I told the U16 team that I would play my last game with his team that season the next Sunday (I decided to play with the U16 but I also had to play with the U14 that day, don't ask me why I chose to play with U16). As soon as the U16 game finished, I received a call from the U14 coach, who told me that he didn't want me to play for his team anymore and that he could win the championship without me; he wanted to tell me other things too but I hung up on him. I stayed away from basketball for about two months and I focused on school since it was my last year of Junior High and I had to pass some exams and get accepted before doing the inscription to High School.
In March I returned to the U16 team and after a few games I was one of the two starting guards. I helped the team won the city championship and entering the regional playoffs. We finished second in the region and we couldn't access the national championship so we started the spring championship and finished first in the city and first in the region, becoming the best team in CSI U16 championships in 2005/2006.
As soon as the summer started and my basketball club closed its doors, I fell into depression and I started to do nothing all day, I started to stay up all night and sleep during the day, I started eating a lot...to say it in a few words: I started screwing up my life.
I gained about 6 kilograms and I only grew one or two centimetres in height (I went from 178-9 cm to 180cm) during the summer and I haven't started dieting yet so I still have all that fat in my body (I weigh at about 81kg right now and I'm 180cm tall)...
Plus, everything around me seems to be so fake, so sad, so dead, so monotonous, like a black and white picture: everyone wants to be the same as the "cool" guy and at the same time the "cool" guy is just imitating someone else. It's like everyone is doing something or acting in a determinate way just because everybody else is doing it and they think it is "cool". People have no personality anymore, they're just acting/being/dressing like everybody else and sometimes they loose theirselves. I think that only happens here, I mean, anywhere else you see kids acting like older kids just because "being older is cool" but when you enter school you don't see everyone dressed the same way, doing the same things, listening to the same crap music, insulting the teacher the same way, getting high or smoking in the bathroom just because everybody else does it. And when you try explaining to them that they're not therselves if they act the way everybody else does, they reply telling you something like "You can't say a word because you listen to rock...and rock sucks". People is so ignorant and stupid that it makes me wanna either kill myself or kill everybody that is under thirty years old of age. With my friends, I keep hiding what I really am (I pretend to be the person I was a year ago) just to not be alone...
Another thing that is happening to me recently is that I am coming to understand how shitty is the country I live in compared to other countries like Germany, the Netherlands, Sweden, the UK (easily the best countries in Europe), the US and Canada (easily the best countries in the world...at least in my opinion). I mean, Milan is claimed to be one of the best cities in Europe, but I've been living in it for about five years now and I can say, without any doubt, that when you live in it and you come to know where actually people lives (as a tourist you will only get to see museums and the centre of the city: the Cathedral and the Sforza's Castle area mainly) you come to know that this city is not what it is believed to be. I personally hate the way people live here, always eating pasta, focaccia, pizza and other crappy stuff, always in hurry, always having to deal with traffic issues; if you take the underground and it is in the peek hours, there is a chance that you die suffocated...same with other public transportation services. You wake up in the morning and you can't be happy because you don't get to see the sun or the blue sky (the sun isn't visible because we always have fog in the morning and the sky doesn't look blue anymore because of the big pollution-related problems we have here) or simply just a grass garden or nice buildings (you may also know that there are only like less than fourty non-apartment-houses in Milan and 65% of the buildings were built from the 1800's to the 1960's.). All you see in this city, apart from the buses, trams, etc. that are orange or green, is gray...it gets you depressed. I really need a break from this city, from this reality so I think I could move to the US or Canada since my English has improved a little (or not). That truly is the only good news for me in the whole year.
As you can see, 2006 was a GREAT year for me: so great that it made me write this long-ass post about it.
The only thing I want from 2007 is a single-no-return ticket to California, a job and a house there. I really don't want anything else.
I'm sorry if I annoyed you with this crappy post, but I didn't have anything else to do so I wrote it... Meh, you probably didn't read it so whatever...
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Joe' on Tue Nov 21, 2006 11:11 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Dear Old World, you represent everything that's wrong...
I love those moments. Summer continued, long days of streetball since the sun doesn't go down. Until they tore the court apart 
