by Oznogrd on Thu Jul 15, 2010 10:43 pm
Religions an intriguing subject for me. I've grown up in the bible belt in a town where even the public schools cow to the whims of the fundamentalist southern baptist majority. 3000 students in my high school: about half of them went to the same misguided church.
Let's start at the beginning though. I was brought up in a two religion family. On my mother's side, we have new york Jews. On my Dad's side: southern baptist rednecks. I started out being brought up christian (we didnt go to church though, when i was born the congregation asked my Dad why God was punishing him with a disabled child), going as far as to read 3 bible stories out of my kid friendly bible a day. When I went to vacation bible school, i enjoyed myself. I had very religious friends (my best friend wasn't allowed to watch power rangers), and tried to do things like not swear, not get mad at people, not have a short temper etc. Every single night, i felt guilty and dirty for my own nature which was anger and swearing: especially in middle school.
Well, when i became a teenager i started actually listening to what preachers were telling me. I was a sinner automatically. My parents were also sinners. The proof of this? I was in a wheelchair. At the same time, I was being told I was a sinner again for not trying to convert my Jewish family and my two best friends (who happened to be Hindu). It was this point I started saying "maybe this isnt for me." Then as the preachers began to attack every band I listened to, I saw "good christian kids" setting my favorite album at the time on fire in the parking lot because "it was evil." At this camp where i saw the burning album, we were sent outside to pray and connect with god on our own. I sat in a field looking up at the stars and realized I was talking to myself. From that point on, I stopped being religious.
In high school, I became a vocal atheist against the religious majority. My English classes and even my science classes constantly brought up religious discussions like "what is sin?" "is evolution possible?" "Does every major work of art have to be about Christianity?" "Does the religion of our President matter?" I fought the side of reason and couldn't understand how people could be on the side of religion and be intellient. At the same time though, i met two people who practiced what they preached. When they found I was atheist, they asked me about it, we discussed our differring views, we knew we weren't going to "save" each other, we didnt judge and we stayed friends till graduation. My hindu friends were constantly handed flyers trying to convert them, and no teacher ever did a thing about it. When I asked these propaganda spreaders, if they were born into christianity would it be ok to try to convert them to hinduism they said No. They didnt get my point when I laughed. There's more stories I could tell, but these are basically the point. My friends and I were outcast for not being religious...in a public school.
Well, I had no point for religion and didnt understand why other people did until college when my grandfather died. With college courses, drinking, and the stress of dealing with family issues from 1100 miles away: i finally understood religion. It gives people a way to cope with the uncopable, it gives them solace when nothing else can help. Well: it still didnt do that for me: but at least i somewhat understood. I'm not against religion completely anymore: but I still don't need it and therefore hold on to my atheist leaning/agnostic views despite wanting to marry a girl who was very Catholic.
Currently I lean towards taoist beliefs: theres a driving energy to the universe, everything comes from and returns to it. But a sentient God who says "Do what I say or I'll fucking spank you?" Not so much
Is there a God? Probably not a sentient one
Is there any deity? Probably not a sentient one
Is there a work that imparts the Entire Truth? Nah
Are there prophets? In a philosophical/societal sense: sure, prophets that speak to god? Probably not
Is there an afterlife? If there is, im going to Hell with alot of good people
Is there a Heaven? If there is and I go there, can i refuse to take my legs back?
Are Filipinos ever going to Heaven? Shadows going to hell with me, so...Lean maybe?
Is there a Hell? nah but if there is, i'll be in there with everyone i hang out with
Is there reincarnation? I doubt it: most of that past life regression shit is egged on by the therapist and is something the person read in a story or saw in a movie
A yin or a yang? Maybe not in a religious sense, but of course there's balancing sides to everyone/everything.
Are your thetans in check? Nah. I like my alien spirits and intend to keep them. Pain is proof you're alive.
Is Scientology a cult? The difference between religion and a cult is a cult charges you money to believe. Scientology requires money to "advance" your beliefs. so yes.
Is Muhammad (PBUH) sacred? Nah. South Park showed him in season 5 and no one gave a fuck, so why does it suddenly matter?
Is the only true challenger to the Cat Lords, Darko? I thought it was Kwame myself.
What should be done with non-believers? And if they resist? Part the red sea then collapse it on top of them..oh wait
Was Madonna right? NO, she was never "like a virgin"
Is a "secular" religion possible? No
Is there a one-true Religion? Why is one more truthful or superior to another? Nope. Universalist/Unitarian ftw.
